...We live in a society....

 I remember I was about eleven years old when I got sexually assaulted for the first time. Before that, I enjoyed going out, wearing the clothes I liked and experiment with them. I remember I wanted to try ‘grown woman’ stuff, like makeup, heels, big earrings. My mom always let me experiment and try new things with my identity, so I thought that was fine. But everything changed when I started to get approached by older men… me, a 11 year old child. I was being extremely sexualized at a young age for wearing NORMAL clothes. Do you guys remember those ‘mini skirt’ that everyone used to wear in 2009-2011? I couldn’t step out of my house without getting a gross ‘compliment’.

One of the most shocking moments I ever lived was when I was walking home after school and a blonde man with dreadlocks and green eye was looking at me from a corner, smiling and masturbating. In public. I was alone and I was probably 12 years old. I didn’t know what to do.

I still see him around sometimes. I know his wife and daughter too. I wonder if he still does the same to young girls.

I also remember when I was like sixteen, and this man followed me and told me all the ‘great things he would do to me in bed’. I was terrified. I couldn’t even talk.

I saw him a few weeks ago sleeping or unconcious, I don't know, in the streets near my neighbourhood…. I felt happy. Like divine justice.

I stated my age because even if these things still happen to me, it was way more frequent when I was underage. It scares me to death. I still don’t enjoy wearing beautiful dresses ( and they are my absolutely favourite piece of clothing). I am always scare of men getting closed to me even if they are completely ignoring my existence. I am scared of making eye contact with any man. I am scared of my Young sister, my cousins, my nieces.

It just make me think…. We really don’t realise how disgusting and pedophile this society is… and how normalized it is.... Now I think about it very often… Life is very challenging for us women.